Pathetic

What do you people want from me? Why is this happening? Why?

Well, I’ve got no one else to talk to. Nothing going on. Saw Stevie. His doctor said he can wait until he has insurance to remove the rest of the cancer. I have a feeling he’s just not telling me. It’s basal, so there is hope, but I don’t know.

Apparently, he once fought off a bear trying to steal his munchies. That was an interesting story. He camping with that old lady we got into that fight over. I've kind of had enough with him. Mentioning her was unnecessary. 

I’m not going to contact him anymore. I just… I’m tired of feeling so worthless. I’m just tired of it.

I’m tired of all of it. My dad yelled at me. He’s, like, the only person I speak to, and he doesn’t want to hear about any of it. I’m tired. I’m tired of all of it.

I spent an hour on the phone with {LP}. God, I miss my kids. He is doing good. He’s surprised I’m still alive after everything. Me too, kid, me too.

I’m lonely. I spent the night at LawyerBoy’s Thursday. It’s nice just sleeping next to someone. I wish I could find someone who wants me. No one does. No one ever has.

I still wish Dave had been man enough to kill me.