Anatomy Lesson

I have an unusual anatomy for a woman my age. I’ve had a few things happened in life that have made the anatomical structure of my genitalia unique. First and foremost, I have never given birth vaginally. The largest object that has ever been in my vagina was {D}’s fist that night. Additionally I had cervical cancer. Still being in my 20s at the time, the doctor agreed to just remove part of the cervix so the uterus and cervix would remain. I have about half a cervix.

The vagina can be looked at like elastic. It stretches to a point. Once it’s stretched beyond that elasticity it doesn’t go back to the same size. This is typical of childbirth. Women’s vaginas that pass children through are much wider in diameter than that if a woman who has never given birth vaginally. I have a smaller diameter because I had c sections for all three of my children.

I will give a pass of sorts to {D}. I don’t think he had ever done that to a woman who had never given birth vaginally. From what he has told me of girlfriends and women it could have easily be decades since the last time he was interacting with a vagina that had not been through childbirth. He might not have known what agony he was causing me just from his experience. He should have known from the screaming, but that, he said, was the part he liked.

Then the lack of cervix comes into play. The vagina is a certain depth then you hit the cervix. The cervix is kind of a solid rubber donut that effaces and spreads during childbirth. That is the dilating piece for child birth. It is hard and solid and is the barrier between the vagina and the uterus. I only have half of a cervix. If anything is inserted into my vagina of a length greater than the depth of my vagina it pushes into my cervix which is in medical terms incompetent. I structurally cannot take anything like that without it pushing into my uterus. Which is what {D}’s hand did that night. I started bleeding a day later because it had artificially induced my menstrual cycle. I would continue to have periods every other week for a couple months.

That was a really careful and clinical way of saying I have a super tight pussy and his nails ripped down the walls of my vagina like a cat with a scratching post and was so forceful it broke into my uterus.

The damage that night was devastating to my anatomical structure. It was akin to giving birth for the first time.