No One Cares

So it happened. I mean that statement in a multitude of ways. It happened.

What happened? Well, what I started out meaning was this: I watched the videos. I didn’t want to do it alone, so I used AI. Several of them, actually.

I wanted one to give me a transcript. I had Gemini actually watch the videos. I had Governess take my notes as I watched and described what I was seeing on the screen. Then I fed it all to Grok.

All of the AIs agree that the videos portray nonconsensual sexual acts. All of them confirm coerced behavior. All of them confirm that {D} was in charge, and that he said as much at the end.

Apparently, at one point I actually tell {D} that he is harassing me.

Here, look at some of the notes:

Each video reflects a portion of a continuous sequence of events. The recordings demonstrate changes in conduct over time, including increasing physical control, escalation of activity, and repeated instances of expressed distress, resistance, and inability to withdraw.

The videos are identified as follows:

• Video 1 (Approx. 8:33 PM): Initial interaction. Depicts immediate physical resistance, inability to withdraw, and continued conduct despite resistance.

• Video 2 (Approx. 8:36 PM): Continuation following a brief gap. Depicts physical restraint, involvement of a third individual, and escalation beyond previously attempted limitations.

• Video 3 (Approx. 8:39 PM): Depicts resumed conduct with repeated verbal statements indicating nonconsent, alongside continued physical activity.

• Video 4 (Approx. 9:01 PM): Extended recording capturing a broader sequence of events, including progression, a turning point, and subsequent escalation.

Taken together, these recordings reflect a pattern of conduct occurring over time rather than isolated incidents. The materials are provided for review in conjunction with the accompanying declarations and video files.

That’s what the AI said.

So here is what I know. I know {D} raped me. I just watched it with my own two eyes again, and every system I can run it through agrees.

The only defense he has is that I’m crazy. I’m obsessed. I was mad we broke up. So I did what any normal woman would do and time traveled backward and made him rape me on video, right? Because isn’t that the only way any of that could affect consent at the moment of the video? Fucking time travel?

I am so fucking glad I didn’t go to law school. I don’t want to be one of those people. I could never intentionally tear someone down just to distract from the guilt of my client. I’m crazy, so I couldn’t have been raped. I’m not trustworthy.

Video is. Video very much is.

I had a huge misconception about the law. I thought it was done without malice, with ethics, not by intentionally causing more harm to the victim and making her look bad. But that is his case. He cannot defend or deny what is on those videos, so instead he has to distract and make me the problem.

It’s actually what he did to me our whole relationship.

I want to give up right now. I really do. I want to give the fuck up. I don’t know what I’m getting out of this other than more hurt.

But I can’t back down until it’s over. Please let it be over soon.

I expected adults talking and discussing things, not every email being a fucking minefield.

I can’t handle this.

I just need to make it through. I need to make it through this part so I can get the books out. I can’t afford them right now because of the deposition cost, and I’m worried that if I die before I get them out, I won’t change a goddamn thing. So I need to mail out the books. But if what I am experiencing now is in fact how the law actually works, then what is even the point? At that point, no one cares about your trauma.

Maybe that’s the point I missed when they declined to bring charges.

No one fucking cares.