After sending repeated emails to the Clark County District attorney’s office, where I had previously been told since I wasn’t part of an active case I could only email and not call. Between July and September I sent dozens of emails. Some I begged. Some I gave case law and scholarly journal articles. In one I sent pictures of myself in the hopes they see as a human being. I never got an answer. I sent them video 4 and I sent them smaller clips of video 4 in the hopes they would look and get back to me
9/20 I finally had enough and went to their office and told them I wasn’t leaving until someone spoke to me. I was actually shocked it worked because I was given a meeting a week later with district attorney Wolfson himself. I was surprised and didn’t quite understand why my case would be with the actual elected DA. But I didn’t complain. I was going to get answers finally.
The meeting came and I immediately wasn’t a fan of Wolfson. He screamed sleazy politician. To me. His shirt was either pink or yellow and sleeves rolled a quarter up. Gladhanding was the word I thought of. Then he takes me in the room with Jore who I call Doe Eyes McGee because she is like a frightened puppy. We had spoken, well she spoke I yelled, on the phone and she tried to explain why she couldn’t argue this case and that was the moment I learned my mantra “it’s on video!” She had called the case weak and had told me should not go to the media. I responded “the don’t believe me either” she immediately said "who says I don't believe you?" You believe me but you can't prove it in court? What? And how the hell did they know that I was going to go to the media? Hmm. I hung up screaming from that phone calll. I emailed and asked her to just put it in writing so I could control my temper and still get information. I never got an email back so I kept emailing what ever I could think of to get her to give me an actual reason. Like tell me what I did wrong here? I said no. I tried. It’s still rape. Then months and now I am sitting here with her and Wolfson and of course Guido the Enforcer, aka Daskas.
I hated Daskas the moment he started speaking. He was an enforcer. That what Dave was both short and demanding and attempting at intimidation. This got me a little more defensive than I should I think just having someone that reminded me of Dave made me angry. I specifically did not look at him or pay attention to him when he spoke. I was going to make damn sure he did not get the pleasure of thinking he could intimidate me. So I very much ignored him.
He went into this speech about recording and how they do not record in that that room. Well, sure, but it’s one party consent in Nevada if you’re in person so I don’t care and I just shrugged like whatever. The sad thing is I had a recorder running in my pad folio so I didn’t want to say I understood him so I gave. Meh. Unfortunately I lost the goddamn recorder. I have no idea where the fuck it went. I never even downloaded it or heard the the recording. It’s in my house somewhere. No idea where. I put it somewhere safe. Don’t hate that?
So having ignored Guido the Enforcer, I turn to Wolfson because he is the boss it’s his final decision and I don’t need to talk to the other two. They are unnecessary.
I said, sarcastically I believe, that I was not a member of the Las Vegas legal community like other parties involved. I believe I had sent something to that effect in an email. Lawyers doing lawyer shit, you know.
He very quickly told me he did not know {D}. Like yeah no shit you’re a gladhanding politician who supervises an ineffective county court. Like embattled is a good term for the DAs office. They don’t do shit. He will let you plea murder down to a fucking parking ticket. It’s a fucking joke. {D} would make fun of him and I know it. Like no. So i retorted “well, he knows Aaron Ford.” And left it there.
He then tries to let little Doe Eyes talk about how in video 3 I say something about closing the window the first video started at 8:33 the second 8:39 and the third was 9:00 so before this video starts I have already been screaming for 27 minutes with the window open. So suddenly saying we should close the window for what ever reason I said it, which given if was February and I was naked could have been because I was cold. I’m done trying to remember why I said it, it was inconsequential. If someone was come they would have been there by then but given how my night was going with my luck they would have joined in.
So I went back to my mantra “it’s on video”
Wolfson then tried to explain how he was bound by prosecutorial duty to not try a case he can’t win. What was my retort? Damn right it was “it’s on video”
We go through this a couple times and I am getting more upset because none of this makes sense. You don’t think you can win it? I could win this damn case it’s on video for gods sake. A drunken half dead squirrel could win this damn case. It was all so vague he was trying to not answer just prosecutorial this and arguments that and I know lawyers. My dad is a lawyer I date lawyers I damn near went to law school myself that like life’s big regret was grad school over law school. And hell in grad school I studied legal history I can read and explain a Supreme Court decision with the best of them. I’ve been published on that shit. So don’t try to confuse me with your scary big legal words. Bitch, I took Latin. I have tattoos in fucking Latin. Wanna play?
I know at one point my mouth got the better at me and the mantra turned into “it’s on fucking video!” Wolfy then put his hand up in a kind bring it down gesture so I did and said “it’s on video.” He then told me they were trying to help me. And I explained they were not helping me in any way, if they wanted to help me they would charge him.
I continued to argue a little more. Then I asked about the other video. They said “what video?” Interesting, okay. Now I did find this odd for a number of reasons. I gave the police the video for the DA who had wanted to forensically search my phone. I declined because I have video and pictures of more important members of the Las Vegas legal community on my device in all sort of compromising positions.
So as I was saying I gave the police the video in lieu of the phone, so I assumed that since the DA had asked for the phone he was given the video. So the part is I had actually directly emailed them the video directly to the DAs office in one of my epic begging for answers emails.
This bitch right here, well he runs out and tells the legal secretary to pull every I had sent and he comes back in and say that it was his fault they must have forgotten the attachment when they forwarded it. It wasn’t the main email for the office. I had scoured the web looking for documents with his personal on it so it went straight to him. And this was a 40 min long video it was a link to google drive, not an attachment and he yells out the door to his legal secretary “send the links too!”
Jesus Christ so they agree to watch it okay fine works for me. Somehow Guido gets in and he is upset and wants to know why this mysterious video, that had been in their inbox for a month at minimum at this point, came from and I without looking at him tell him that I didn’t realize I had taken that night. {M} took the original 3 video so I had them on text so I had pulled them from there. But when I was looking at all the videos on the phone I saw that one and kind of went “what the fuck is this?” Basically I had turned the phone on record and set it on the dresser then the next 40 minutes played out in its entirety.
Then he asked me as aggressively as he could how long ago did I give it to the cops. I told him I didn’t know for sure and I said a couple weeks I think. And I’m like let me look and I’ll tell you for sure.
So still asking me questions and I’m scrolling looking for the date fucking Guido the Enforcer is like “I need to ask you questions stop looking at your phone.” So I while still scrolling because as I say to Guido, “I have the ability to do two things at once, but if you want me to answer your questions I need to look.” Then I pull up the date July 25 or 26 I think.
Now it is October. October. So Guido instantly says “I thought it was 2 weeks ago” like homie do you have any idea how fucked up my life has been. I have lost complete sense of time. My memory is like last summer it never happened like this has been so bad and so stressful and so much work for me. So I looked at short little ass and said “time no longer exists in my world.”
I turned back to Wolfson and I offered to watch the video with them. Told them it’s only 40 minutes I have time let’s watch it together. I will answer questions and explain things they might not see but I see because I remember why I did it. And I can point where it’s worse than it seems. Because I have spent months at this point analyzing these fucking videos. You want every argument you are going to get out of it, you should watch it with me I can explain everything that happens and why this is the video that can correct for any deficiencies in the case and why. You have to watch it anyways let’s just get it over with since I’m here. He refused. Of course he refused.
Fine I don’t recall how but we got back on the subject of the first video and this is the point shit went sideways. So I remember I look at him he said something, I have it notes somewhere, and I asked halfway sarcastically, “have you actually watched the video?” And he told me he had not.
Okay what the fuck. Are you fucking kidding me? And I told him “well you’re going to watch it now!”
He says “Ms. Light, if you turn that video on I am terminating this meeting!” Like damn now we aren’t even on first name basis anymore. Like what the fuck? Why is this motherfucker freaking out like this? Why did he decide on the case and not watch the video. Like the video IS the case. I still don’t understand my lawyer ex boyfriend told me when I asked why he would react like that. He just simply stated “plausible deniability.” Thank god it’s plausibly deniable for him. It sure as hell isn’t for me.
Now I am me. I am not your average person. I will do shit and I will not care. I'm not crazy, I'm obnoxious, there is a difference. I am way too defiant for my own good or anyone’s good for that matter. So when that motherfucker said he would terminate the meeting I looked him dead in the fucking eye, because again I am me, and I turned the video on.
That bitch ran. Like ran. And I’m like grabbing my padfolio and I just went “Jesus fucking Christ” and followed him down the corridor or I do sometimes the story as I chased him down the hallway (one of those makes me sound a little saner that other but they mean the same thing), volume all the way up and yelled “What’s the matter Steve, you don’t want to listen to me scream?”
Then I called him a “pussy.”
We hit this L in the hallway and Guido tells me I am going to be removed by security for “forcing Mr. Wolfson to watch the video.” The word “forcing” to a rape victim. I am fucking pissed. So I looked at him and I said “go ahead. Do I appear to be someone who has never been in cuffs before?”
See, the defiance it shocks people. He wasn’t planning on that and didn’t have anyone from security. So I’ll call your bluff. Now Wolfson snickered at the handcuff line, so I don’t know if that softened him but then I invoked the name of the God amongst Nevada prosecutors and boxers both.
“If Mills Lane were alive today, this would be taken care of” and started crying.
Wolfson agreed to watch the video. Guido stops him and says “no, boss” and I’m still not understanding any of this shit. We set up a meeting for the following week and ended on a positive and of course security has shown up now so I go with my escort out the door. Unfortunately the elevators had an issue and it took like 15 minutes to get walked out. The guy was nice. He said “see you later!” And I said “I certainly hope not” and we both laughed.
The meeting was set for the following week, video meeting because they didn’t want to have to escort me out again. I felt good like maybe I had broken through with him. Maybe hearing it changed something. Maybe I was just entertaining enough to make him like me. I was hoping.
That was stupid.
I spent the next week sending that video to him every fucking day. I pointed things out. I asked if we really we this bad off as a county that our court system couldn’t handle this case. I explained psych and I was nice-ish and when that Wednesday came around, it was first thing AM. I joined the call. I did not expect what happened.
This bitch right here…
Wolfson says, after limited pleasantries, “let me ask you one question” and I’m like okay and he say “did you have sexual contact with {D} after this video was made?”
I’m like “of course we were in a romantic relationship” eyebrow up and what the fucking him. He should have known about the other rapes as I had told the fucking police about it. So he shouldn’t have even asked but hey, Wolfsy does Wolfsy.
He starts to speak and then he repeats himself. He is practiced. He is jumping to deliver his line that you can see he is so fucking proud of. Apparently I don’t think I softened him and I don’t think he watched or had any intention of watching that video. He proudly tells me that he and his office can “prosecute men who raped prostitutes, but you stayed with him”
He hovers his finger over the end call button on the computer waiting for my reaction so he can hang up on me. I flashed my best fuck you smile and say “okay. I’ll be back. I’ll go through metro I think NSP mishandled the case. Oh and you might want to watch the video because I’ll be sending it to your opponent along with that cute picture of me when I was Christian school teacher with Donald Trump” and I hung up before he could hang up on me.
I hate to admit it but I broke. That was fucking cruel. I didn’t think anyone would say something like that to me given the situation. I mean who the fuck says that to a rape victim? What kind of cruel heart creature can do that?
The kind of cruel heartless creature I will be going door to fucking door telling every voter I can what he said to me. Who the fuck does that? What the actual fuck? I get it I am pushy and I was defiant. I don’t do well with authority. Or stupid people. But I didn’t deserve that shit. That was just intentionally harmful. I’m sure I’m not the first to call him a pussy. He sure as hell ain’t the first to call me a whore. But for fuck sake there is a time and place and when you are telling a woman why you won’t charge her rapist, that is not the time nor the place to call her a whore.
You know I get sad and scared and am angry. I’ve been like this forever with the fighter in me. You feel like fear and you fight and get angry because if you cry they win and fuck them. As Mills Lane told my mom “you put your ears back and you fight.”
Also I looked at some of his cases. He is a shitty lawyer. Can’t fucking write worth a shit. I looked up the other two as well well not Doe Eyes, who cares. Can I tell you how much it pisses me off that I think Guido could have taken {D} in court? He can handle a trial. And they think the same because Guido was also a high school wrestler. He also he is in an unfortunate book it was bad. Book about murder so yeah not what I call literature. Fucking yeah that guy. Fuck em all. They all got their ethics commission complaints completed this morning. And I found out I could do an ethics complaint on {D} post employment here at the ethics commission. So find some fucking ethics, Wolfy.
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