I am serious about the civil suit and the more I work on it the more I see justification for this. I’m not going to share publicly yet but, I located some laws that I didn’t know existed and I’m going to fuck them. Okay maybe me v a thousand lawyers, these are not good odds, but I always like to play the defy statistical probability game. After all, they are Nevada lawyers and I have not met one Nevada lawyer that wasn’t a fucking moron so hopes are high. I’m on a law buzz right now.
I have spent like days 12 hours at a time doing this. Let me tell you how I’m doing it because that’s its own special fuck you. I am using ChatGPT. Now understanding computer algorithms and how data can be processed I decided, in my own very special way, I was going to set this up the best I could. I thought to myself “self, who is the best damn civil trial attorney you know?” Self replied simply {D}. Hmmmm so how do I figure out how to do this exactly the way {D} would? Well, it’s a computer it finds patterns if given a large enough dataset. So I told it to go pull 500 filing that had been written by {D}. Including his Supreme Court case. I then instructed it to scan the files and look for patterns of speech , tone, formatting, consistent word use, style, and most importantly legal logic. Then I take it and I ask it “what would {D} do?" And it tells me with logic of why {D} would do that. Now, {D} was the attorney for the state in a lot of his filings so once it tells me and we write, I then ask it “what motion would {D} file to defend against this claim? And it tells me how to fix it to be as {D} proof as possible. It’s a lot of trial error and I’m still concerned about formatting and is this too long or is this too succinct? So I’m creating a few different versions until I’m happy with them Then, you know like human eyes will need to be there. And I willl pull all the case law and memorize it it simple enough.
Now AI is young it still has a lot of learning to do before it’s an ultimate tool that will eventually make your toaster kill you because The Terminator did indeed warn us that is what was going to happen, but for now it’s a baby. I have to remember to treat it as such and tell it what I want it to learn. It’s driving me a little nuts because you know AI photos of hands have too many fingers. It’s there but don’t trust it implicitly. Close very close but not quite. I’m having the issue of it making up facts here and there like security cameras and it keeps trying to say I was unconscious in the videos. I would have much preferred it that way.
This has been traumatizing to a point to have to go back through it, but I’m feeling encouraged. I see where laws were seriously violated by a lot of actors in this at the government level. There are rules and processes that should have been followed. I was absolutely within my legal right to send that to his employer as he held a position of public trust. I actually did the right thing, which for all the revenge porn threats I got, that was a bit of a weight off my shoulders. I feel a little better about that.
I am dreading it, but, I really really have to sit down and watch and notate the videos. I have to. I don’t want to and it’s going to be a bad day when I do it. I’m not in a rush on this I want it right. I’m firmly within my time to do it so I have breathing room and I don’t have to rush it and I don’t want to. I will say however I do my best writing and work at the last possible minute, so we shall see. But I’m doing this.
I am terrified of the idea of going into court and arguing this. I’m an excellent public speaker I am a teacher and I can break fact down and explain it to the lowest common denominator. Those are my skills and my strengths. If I know it I can explain and I think that’s the goal is to explain and present to a jury why you are right, right? Maybe have I been watching to damn much Matlock? I’m really good at telling why I’m right. Also great presentation voice. My voice carries. My fears are breaking down and sobbing in the middle of it. Or better yet losing my temper because that’s a long known factor with me. I’m not the most likable person but I usually do okay when I am a presenter in a group. People don’t automatically hate i"me, you have to know me to really learn why to hate me (see temper above).
I just have to build myself up and go balls to the wall.
I learned about something else too. Injunctive Relief. I can ask for remedies that would prevent this shit from happening to anyone else. I’m asking for mandatory legal CE for trauma informed prosecutors who learn about relationship rape and how and why it exists and hopefully they can learn and learn how to argue it. Look at my data page with the facts and figures 99.3% of relationships rape cases go completely un prosecuted. I can change that! I can do it. I was kind of on the fence about doing this because money is money nothing is going to make up for this. A billion dollars would never make me back into the person I was, but I can change that future for someone else. I can take every falsehood and procedure and barrier and stonewall I have hit and I can ask for them to correct it. Correct the problems. That’s so important. That’s so fucking awesome. I knew I loved the American judicial system for a reason.
And the fuck you on top is I am using the words of a rapist to make that shit happen. I have some of his cases in-line cited as supporting case law. It’s like I’m fucking him with his own dick and that is awesome. You have no idea how good that would feel to use it, to use him, to change the outcome for another woman. To make what he did and use his knowledge and style and logic to change the things so he would have never gotten away with it. I get to use him to make an impact on the future. I get to take this tragedy that damn near killed me by my own hand and I get to make good come from it. Goddamn that’s fucking empowering.
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