You happy now?

So the AG records are trickling in, slowly after almost a year. Today I got the ones about my actual case—the ones that counted.

They only sent me one document.

One.

It’s the one where {D}’s daughter flat-out lies about me contacting her from multiple numbers and calling me mentally unwell. That’s the ONLY fucking record I can ever get about my rape investigation.

Thank you for that. You getting a friend request by accident is so much more important than me finding out why my rapist, regardless of his relationship to you, was left uncharged. I need to know that. I have been fighting for two goddamned years to get that information for my own sanity so I could stop feeling like it was my fault. 

Look at me now. I am barely holding on by a thread after what he did to me.

It took two full months for my vagina to heal from the destruction of that night.

I screamed for hours, and no one batted an eyelash—and they were my friends. I thought I was overreacting. He told me I was overreacting. I didn’t know the depths until I actually watched the video.

And now I can’t ever get any more information—just lies. Just traight-up fucking lies, and I’m “crazy.” You know who has contacted me from multiple numbers? {D}. Talking about how big his hands are. The rape video for my Christmas present was retweeted for porn and went viral. {D} has impersonated a victim in my goddamn comment section. AND I CAN'T GET THE POLICE TO HELP ME BECAUSE IF THE LIES YOU SENT. So guess what, I just have to deal with it  I just have to suck it up and hope the next guy I try to date is real and not {D} continuing to fuck with my head like he has for almost a decade.

That has been the hardest part: getting people to pay attention to me because they think I am fucking crazy. And of fucking course I was in July of 2024—wouldn’t you be? But no, now I’m stalking his fucking daughter, and I don’t get the fucking records or help I needed.

i will bet a million dollars you didn't watch it. Respect me enough to listen to it. You know it's true. You do and I know it. But this is what he did to me. This is how badly he hurt me. 

this is not to say I can't make myself look crazy on my own. Trust me I can I don't need any fucking help. You deserved to know what he is. You know now. I should have done it differently but, you needed to know that man who didn't use his status or connections to protect you, he used sure as hell used them to protect himself. I know you went back for public in 2022. Imagine if all you had gotten was that bullshit email. Imagine how that would feel.