You happy now?

So the AG records are trickling in, slowly after almost a year. Today I got the ones about my actual case—the ones that counted.

They only sent me one document.

One.

It’s the one where {D}’s daughter flat-out lies about me contacting her from multiple numbers and calling me mentally unwell. That’s the ONLY fucking record I can ever get about my rape investigation.

Thank you for that. You getting a friend request by accident is so much more important than me finding out why my rapist, regardless of his relationship to you, was left uncharged. I need to know that. I have been fighting for two goddamned years to get that information for my own sanity so I could stop feeling like it was my fault. 

Look at me now. I am barely holding on by a thread after what he did to me.

It took two full months for my vagina to heal from the destruction of that night.

I screamed for hours, and no one batted an eyelash—and they were my friends. I thought I was overreacting. He told me I was overreacting. I didn’t know the depths until I actually watched the video.

And now I can’t ever get any more information—just lies. Just traight-up fucking lies, and I’m “crazy.” You know who has contacted me from multiple numbers? {D}. Talking about how big his hands are. The rape video for my Christmas present was retweeted for porn and went viral. {D} has impersonated a victim in my goddamn comment section. AND I CAN'T GET THE POLICE TO HELP ME BECAUSE IF THE LIES YOU SENT. So guess what, I just have to deal with it  I just have to suck it up and hope the next guy I try to date is real and not {D} continuing to fuck with my head like he has for almost a decade.

That has been the hardest part: getting people to pay attention to me because they think I am fucking crazy. And of fucking course I was in July of 2024—wouldn’t you be? But no, now I’m stalking his fucking daughter, and I don’t get the fucking records or help I needed.

i will bet a million dollars you didn't watch it. Respect me enough to listen to it. You know it's true. You do and I know it. But this is what he did to me. This is how badly he hurt me.