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I don’t know if I should keep talking, but I need to talk. Maybe someone will take pity on me, and whatever is happening tomorrow will happen.

This whole thing is ridiculous. I understand I might be paranoid and nothing is about to happen, or God forbid they are gearing up to talk to me and make this change and fix it and make it better. I suppose that is a possibility. Given the record though, yeah, I’m not gonna place my bets on that shit.

I honestly have no idea what is happening. There are multiple devices out of Vegas that are investigating and have been all day.

Guys, if this is going to harm me. Please. Don’t do this to me. Please. No one believed me anyway. I am not a threat. I am just a disabled, broke, old teacher. I use words to try to express my feelings and try to hopefully make others see my way.

I asked people to just fucking do something. I don’t know what I did wrong. This is unfair.

Like, I have to fucking stand down at some point. I get that. I have to get through the civil case and give a shot to going through the next AG. Wolfson is unopposed, so I can’t do anything with the DA. But I must give it a shot with the new AG.

I just don’t understand how I can be this destroyed and he gets to move on like it’s nothing. I have lost everyone and everything. I can’t just move on with my life. The residual of this will last. And I have to shut up about my story if I ever want to date. I have to become ashamed of what happened to me. Seriously, that is what society wants. I have to be ashamed, and he gets to live another day.

I’m going to end this with a little bit of the discovery. I want you all to read this. And I want you to tell me that a man who could say this with a straight face and under penalty of perjury doesn’t fucking belong behind bars. It’s consent. Not rocket science.

Here is the quote:

Me: Pull it out!
Him: I’m not going to pull it out. I am going to fuck you with it.

This is his answer:

“I did not verbally acknowledge Plaintiff revoking consent. Plaintiff never revoked consent.”

If that is the direct quote from the video, which it is, he literally said no, I’m not going to pull it out, and then? He escalated.

Discovery response from the defendant:

“I understood her to be requesting I stop pressing with the act, to give time to adjust and not to end the act.”

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK STOP MEANS? WHAT THE FUCK DOES NO FUCKING MEAN?

Oh right, he went on to say:

“I do not recall Plaintiff saying ‘stop’ or ‘no’ or exhibiting distress.”

This man is walking the fucking street today. You all who covered up for him? You guys. Go fucking look up consent for yourselves. And know that this man doesn’t know what that means. Look at him trying to defend it. Think about the other women who are in danger.

Then you go right the fuck ahead and do whatever the fuck you want to do to me. Fuck you. If you are coming after me and helping a fucking monster like that? I don’t give a fuck what you think. Come do whatever you’re gonna do. I’m not shutting the fuck up. Ever. Because this? This isn’t okay. This is societal collapse in real time. This is why women get raped all the fucking time and no one does a fucking thing about it.

Fuck you.

And if there is anyone left here with the power to at least fucking try to fix this, just make a fucking attempt. Please, society needs you to.