My sister got a DUI.
My mom thinks she is dying.
Both of these bitches need to shut the fuck up.
My sister was parked on the side of the road, blackout drunk. So blackout drunk the police cut her purse off of her. She refused to blow and spent several hours in jail. They would not release her until she did the breathalyzer, so she did, and she was still drunk.
Patience, cricket. Your dumb ass just fucked up.
So she immediately went home and put her house on the market.
Shake my fucking head. I don’t even know what to say, but apparently everyone is supposed to come save her. You did it to yourself, sugar. Time to suck it up and be an adult.
My mom is sick. I’m sure it has nothing to do with the alcoholism and drug use. But she is dying and can’t go to my sister.
That’s still better than with me. She couldn’t show up for me because her dog had a chronic ear infection.
She needs medical attention but won’t fucking do anything except take drugs and drink, so there is that little problem. She won’t stay at the hospital because she bought a new puppy and needs to be with the dog, and apparently the abusive boyfriend is not capable of feeding the dogs or something.
No, but I’m cool. I just have an abusive ex who raped me and seemingly gets to do whatever the fuck he feels like doing.
My mom said moving Scotty in was a good idea.
“Felons know how to handle things,” she said.
My head hurts.
I’m tired of being the rescue.
My last two years no one bothered with me. No one supported me. No one even told me, “Good job.”
My mom has had her moments of just blankly saying, “You just keep fighting.”
Not in awe. Not even really as encouragement. Just a statement.
You just keep fighting.
Tonight’s post was going to be about how I figure out how to stop fighting.
I don’t know what to fight now. I don’t know where to fight. But I also don’t know how to stop fighting.
It’s all I’ve done for years.
I haven’t passed out on the side of the road. I haven’t drunk myself into medical harm.
I just keep fighting.
And I don’t know how to do anything else.
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